Done...Just fucking done

I want to know why it happens to me. No this isn't a poor fucking pity me rant, I am just really curious. Why everyone else comes before me. I buy, I shlep I make time, I visit, I take care of everyone but myself. My world is coming crashing down on me and I don't even really know why. My life is in shambles. There is no food in my fridge. I don't know when the food stamps will come in. The computer fucked my hard disk so bad that they have to send me a new one and i have to figure out how the fuck I am going to finish my school assignments. My house is a fucking hellhole and I don't feel fucking guilty about it. now I am angry, I am angry that I am too nice...that i do and do and do and put up with the numerous amounts of shit that i do just because i care. i honestly truly fucking care. Because if i didn't then maybe i would have done this a long time ago. But that's it. The people that are staying are family. You want to prove to me that you care, Im putting the fucking ball in your court. PROVE IT! I am tired of being walked all over. I am not a doormat for you to wipe your feet on. I am not someone you can fucking use when its convienent for you. That you make plans with and get my expectations up and then break them. Only to have me find out that someone else was more important. I have for too long been too fucking nice. Well I am done. I don't want phone calls yelling at me for being honest. I don't want poor me messages. You want to be part of my life. Fucking grow a set and be part of my life. because I can't think of a single one of you that I haven't broken my back for. I have been there for you when it was good for you. Well right now, it's no good for me anymore. And it breaks my heart and I know there are faces that I won't see again. But talk shit about me long enough, realize that I am a fucking person too. I have had it. Message me, text me, comment on this blog. But it going to be for all to see. I am done.